Life

So recently (like the beginning of this semester)I ended up going to a school! how odd.... I must confess I was closed minded, and ignorant, I know that I don't think I'm better then any one else but, I did get frustrated with other people for sinning.
I don't believe that I ever judged the kids at my school, but I did get sick of them, instead of loving them I became paranoid with their sinful nature, in reality i should of also been upset with my sinful nature as well, I looked down on their sin, and their humanity forgetting that this is the same thing that I was saved from, the sinful distraught nature of man sickens me, because its motives are simply evil.
God showed me how to love these people at my school for who they are; I began to engage them with small talk and asking them how their doing, but, before I could sincerely love them, I had to get past my ignorance.

When I mention closed minded, I don't mean that I didn't think that there would be profanity, sexual comments, and rude behavior, I mean that I believed that I would enter into the school with a kind and loving heart towards the students at the school
strange enough I didn't even ask God to give me a heart for the students at my school, I kinda didn't care, but as I would pray that God would give me purpose at the school, my heart began to be more accepting of them.

I have been going through a lot of thought processing, more then I did throughout the summer. I've been thinking about non-Christians, and Christians on how they act, if we were to measure how Christians, and non-Christians act or "do good" then they measure the same, we all can do good, but what are the intentions of our hearts? As Christians is our intentions to serve God and love all that he made? or is it to be noticed for our good deeds, I don't like mentioning when I give someone money, or help someone because every time I talk about that stuff, even with close friends I feel guilty of selfishness, and I feel like my intentions were for my self.

Being a Christian I try not to judge others, cause if I went up to someone and told them their sinners, ect.... then I might be showing them the wrong perception of a loving God, instead they might see a God that is angry and mad with them, I wish that what we as people say and do didn't effect others opinions about what we believe, but unfortunately it does. I have a friend that said "some of the kindest people he knows are Mormon," I know your thinking what do Mormons have to do with Christians? well the reason why he said this is because they believe that to get to heaven that they must do good deeds, well I'm not saying we should believe that, I am saying that maybe if we look at everything we do as for God then we'd be doing good for every person we meet, and people might say that the nicest people they know are Christians. Don't get me wrong I don't think we should do good deeds for others to get praise, but what I am saying is maybe if we actually did what the Bible commands us to "do unto others as we want others to do unto you," then maybe the world wouldn't see Christians as mean snotty people who believe their higher then others, maybe they'd see us as servants. I have come to the place where I believe I'm a disciple/Christian meaning that I'm a Christian but I want to take it more personally, not only in my own life but with others. I want to watch God do amazing things not only in my life, but in those around me.

I hope you understand where I'm at right now. comment and let me know your feed back